October 29, 2009
Blogspot is the best
October 26, 2009
Moving Blogs
October 16, 2009
Of Planes and Paranoia
In the past month alone, I’ve ridden a record breaking 10 airplanes in total. That’s like getting on a flight every 3 days for one whole month. I mean, who does that but crazy executives who have to travel every week for meetings??
Considering I’ve been riding in planes my whole life, it seems quite silly to admit I’ve suddenly developed a slight, erm, shall we say apprehension when it comes to boarding these flying contraptions. Each time the plane shakes and the pilot announces the “slight turbulence we are experiencing”, my heart grips in fear and I find my fingers automatically crossing (which, in olden days, was a secret way of making the Sign of the Cross without being punished) while I start praying silently.
With the number of people who have passed away this 2009, no one can really blame me for being a walking case of nerves. It seems every month I am slapped with the reality that ANYTHING can happen and lives can tragically be taken away at the blink of an eye. Before I left for the States, my friend Eggy was murdered. Before that, 2 girls from my school died in fatal accidents, while high profile deaths of former Philippine President Cory Aquino and Michael Jackson shook the public’s lives.
Two days ago, the day I arrived from the US, my brother in law’s best friend died in his sleep. It was the first news I received as soon as I turned on my phone after disembarking the plane. Last night, I was at the wake where several of his friends and family members gave tear-jerking eulogies. Ardee was supposed to speak also but apparently didn’t have the strength to do it, having just arrived from a 10 hour flight and still obviously so distraught.
Most of my life I’ve found myself attending funerals of relatives of people I was never close to. People that my parents or friends knew that I was merely required to go to. But this year has been different. This year I’ve been going to the wakes of people I actually know. It’s entirely alien to me and frankly, scares the crap out of me. Suddenly, when my phone beeps or it’s late at nights and my sisters aren’t home yet or when someone close to me gets on a plane, I get nervous. Nervous for the things that might happen when we’re not together. Nervous for the bad and for the unknown.
It seems I am being reminded more than ever how fragile life can be and no one is spared from being the next person to cross over to the other side, and that includes myself. This realization, if anything is making me embrace life more than ever now and has pushed me closer to God. Because when it comes to life and death, who else can you really turn to for help and strength but Him?
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to ride yet another plane to Iloilo, where my best friend is getting married this weekend.
October 14, 2009
Home Sweet Home
And now, it's time for the ultimate pampering session at home! Been dreaming of a massage and a mani/pedi for weeks now!

